I would say I'm losing my mind. Little help?
I would say I’m losing my mind.
I’m in college. It was a shitty semester and I flunked three out of six classes.
Not out of being an idiot, but lack of homework projects.
I flunked classes the previous semester and my mother told me she wouldn’t pay for my school anymore if I failed again… Whatever.
The thing is that… I feel a little stressed. I’ve been breaking and shouting at things.
I wanted to kill myself, instead I ended up singing gibberish out loud on the floor, while throwing kicks to an orange juice and balancing a stool chair on my neck. Also, I was breaking plastic glassware with a baseball bat and I tried chopping down a tree with said baseball bat until it broke.
So… I have no money for a psychologist, which I hope might help me out a bit.
I could go to a free psychologist, but my mother would toss me out of the house, because she’s of the idea that I must "fix myself". I’ve been doing so since I was five years old and now I’m breaking plastic-ware and shouting "Stop looking at me, motherf#cker!" at the kitchen table and the walls, while trying to have a decent conversation with the family dog.
I’d kill myself, but the thought of my mother crying won’t let me.
Any help would be nice. Thanks.
-Money… Ok, ignore money?
Ok. Thanks!
Damn.
-Ok, I’ll will.
-Eh, thanks for the healthy sarcasm.
-Unstress. Ok.
-Right on…
-Ok.
Seriously, at least That Girl admits she won’t help.
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Well, I think you’re brining stress to a whole other level. I don;t think you’re entirely crazy, but maybe next year, lighten the course load. You’ll have less of a chance of failing, and you won’t be as stressed probably fixing you’re issues. For now, try to find a better way to deal with your stress, like if you play an instrument do that, or color in a coloring book, thats what i do…
good luck
Money is one of the least urgent characteristics of your life. Quit asking money related questions
Just go to a free psychologist and don’t tell your mother. If you’re old enough to be in college, then you’re old enough to do what you want.
your question is a matter of great gibberish that i would like to take to my lab and examine under a microscope and see if it reacts with iodine in any interesting way.
You’re not the problem. The problem is the system. You’re stuck in the system right now, however, you’re not meant to be. Exam what’s real, and what’s been bread into you. College isn’t for everyone and neither is working a 8-5 job in a cubicle. So turn off the tv, read some books on spirituality (stay away from anything with a Christian undertone as those are "in the box" thinking). Open your mind to new, happy ideas and start creating. Make some art. Take some pictures. Write a poem or just write down all your issues and then burn the paper and ask the universe to release you of all those things. It’s just an exercise in cathartic behavior. Just be in a well ventilated area with a big pitcher of water just in case you need to douse it out.
meditate and start ur life again
I’m sorry I’m no help, (I never am) but I wanted to thank you for posting this because it’s something I can relate to. I added your question to my watchlist so I can come back and see your answers.
Thank You
edit- Well I try to be honest.