let me first start off by saying that im a 21 year old girl. Within the past two years, i was struggling with depression and a family member was very sick. My ex bf was abusive and cheated on me, so there for within those 2 years.. i ended up sleeping with 4 of my best guy friends- over the course of two years. and withone of them i had a threesome. I was turned off to the idea.. but i was trashed and felt like i was talked into it. i take full responsibility of my actions- i feel terrible about them. All of those guys ended up telling a mass amount of people and whenever they see that im dating someone.. they go and tell the person im dating about my past mistakes. There is no hiding or escaping from it, i feel trapped. In februrary i dated a boy named John and there is this kid that is friends with all my guy friends, named Nick. Nick went out of his way to tell John about the threesome and how i slept with those 4 guys. The kid stopped dating me, immediatly. I was crushed… Now ive moved on since then and am seeing a guy named Jack. Where non exclusive. i care about him so much. There was another guy that was interested in me named Matt. Well the other night when i went to the bar, both matt and Jack were at the bar. Matt was hitting on me infront of jack and it felt great because for once in this whole thing, i felt like i had the upper hand. they were both jealous of eachohter. They were rapped around my finger. Well it just so happens that that obnoxious heartlesss exscuse for a human being, Nick just got a job the other day at the ba rand he was there as well. The thing these 3 boys have in common with eachother is that they all went to the same high scool. Both Matt and Jack were the most popular guys in ghih school. And Nick was picked on, so when i went to the bathroom, Nick must have wanted an exscuse to talk to them- so he pulled them both aside and informed them of my threesome and my sexual past. They all looked at me in disgust. I literally started crying. They all told me they didnt wanna see me any more. I was horrified.. No matter what i do, i cant escape my past. And if you ask me- i dont see what the big deal is. Yea so i hooked up with 4 guys in the same group of friends- over a course of 2 years- get over it already, i didnt kill any body. So then Jack was outside smoking a cigarette and i was outside too. My friend Meagan was so drunk she fell ontop of me and pushed me on into the metal furniture outside. This was an epic fall, and everyone asked me if i needed an abulance, Jack just looked embaressed for me, and went inside the bar… Im HUMILIATED. i dont know how to fix this.. how do i handel things like this . its just so unfair.

I’m going to try and be dreadfully honest on here as I am seriously seeking advice for my situation.

I am a 24 year old girl who receives money from the government (ODSP) and I seriously wish I wasn’t on ODSP. I live with my brother in a small bachelor apartment (it only has a living room and a washroom), because that’s all we can afford. I get about 0 every month and it barely gets me by. I’m not sure what we gets but he is a manager at a juice bar because he has great people skills.

Alright so every night my brother comes home drunk from a party and then vomits in the washroom. I mean EVERY night. I tried talking to him but have given up since it never seems to get into his head. Not only that but he smokes in the apartment even though there is a 5000 dollar punishment if he ever gets caught smoking in here. I have told him time and time again to stop and do it outside. What’s worse is that I quit smoking 3 years ago and I still have to breathe it in because he keeps smoking in here.

We hardly have any furniture. I have a bed but he always sleeps in it because he never wants to buy himself one and he is filthy and never cleans anything. He always says "well I work and your at home all day!" I get ODSP because I have extreme social anxiety accompanied by panic attacks and fears of buses. The situation in this apartment only makes me feel worse about myself.

I want to get better, but my brother is all that I have. I don’t have any friends and at least I have a roof over my head. The only reason why I put up with his drinking and smoking is because he pays for half of the rent. He used to do drugs but quit them.

How can I get out of this situation and live somewhere clean, quiet, with my own room, and affordable. Whenever I tell ODSP I want to move they never help me. I’m afraid of doing anything and everything and get panic attacks so often I forget what it’s like just to live and be free and at peace.

I want to be a writer and an artist but at this rate I see no hope. What should I do. I’ve been living this way for 5 years now and have no social skills. I didn’t even finish high school, but my panic attacks make it hard for me to go in to do the courses.

Please, can someone help me. I am willing to do anything to just live a normal life free of this. I can’t believe I share a tiny bachelor with my alcoholic brother, am on ODSP, and haven’t finished high school. I never thought I’d become this! I had so many dreams for my life.

I feel defeated, ashamed, lost and weak.
Meant to write "I’m not sure how much money he gets"

Ok I recently bought this apartment in Rockford, Illinois for only ,500 somewhere around there. I was really happy and surprised I got it for so cheap. Anyway the first week or so was alright. Everything was new and I liked it. A few strange phenomenon like a closet banging (I didn’t hear it I just heard banging on a wooden object) and sudden feelings that someone or more than someone is watching me. So at around day 9 I was in my kitchen and was about to wash my hands and I turned on the faucet for cold water and nothing came out. No water, nothing. And my hands were below it and suddenly boiling hot water comes rushing out the "cold" faucet instead of the warm one. I had some serious 2nd degree burns and I rushed to the hospital to fix them. Even now I’m wearing a hand bandage. I was surprised and I just blamed it on some "broken tube" or anything. Then for 2 weeks nothing happened only the banging. And then at day 29 or so I was washing my face (I wash my face twice a day) and when I looked up I saw a 4-5 year old girl on a stool standing on it and staring at me in the eye (I saw this through the mirror by the way). My heart stopped in fear and I noticed that it vanished. Now it’s been 2 days since it happened and I’m scared to death in this house. If the last owner sold this apartment for ,000 cheaper then something terribly went wrong in this home. I need help to elliminate this demon child from my home. And yesterday I awoke to giggling in the middle of the night at 2:23 A.M.

Please any help would be greatly appreciated. I’m trying not to be scared because I think the more I become scared the more powerful this connection with this ghost is. Is it a ghost, a demon, or a spirit?

Honest answers only please but if you MUST joke around saying that I should call the ghostbusters then please don’t waste your time

Thanks,

Alex
And to the girl who answered Im not goin gto Ouija board. i did that as a kid and a demon will usually try to impersonate the person im trying to find. and I cant move out I cant even sell this house. And if i sell it the otherr personw ill have problems =[
And yes I am a christian but I think Ill start hanging crucifixes in the house for more protection.

ok. im a 16 year old girl about to be a junior. i really want to redo my room COMPLETELY before the summers over. I have like 15-20 days. somewhere between that. here is what i was looking at that i really like:

http://i870.photobucket.com/albums/ab270/Kasserole098/bedroom/mybedroom.jpg

i was thinking maybe put some soft baby pink somewhere on the walls. im s=not really sure how id do that tho. and i also have only one dresser and one standing book shelf. i have a wall shelf like this:

http://www.craftsmanspace.com/images/stories/Free%20html%20plans/Furniture/Wall%20Shelf/wall_shelf.jpg

except its shorter and doesnt have the bars and doesnt have the fancy thing at the top with the hearts. i was gonna paint it but not sure what color.
the dresser and standing shelf are dark wood colors so i thought i could paint them black.

i need ideas and pictures of what i could do with my room. its fairly big and has 2 doors in the corner one leads to the bathroom the other leads to the hallway. then the wall extends a little and theres my closet with a really old nasty mettal door the kind that u pull out and they fold open. its really old and always falls out of the tracks. it would be nice to have a door to my closet to hide all the clutter but if i cant find any neat ideas of fixing it up and painting it to look nice then im just gonna get rid of it and find a curtain for it . oh yeah! and curtains. i need some really cool curtains. something to match my bedsheets. i havent gone looking for anything yet but if you could sind some and put a picture of it in your answer then that would be great. i like ones in the picture i put. and instead of the chandelere (god i cant spell) above the bed. i have a really cute wooden pink BFF thing i could put there that my friend gave me i havent put it up yet.

i dont think my parents r willing to spend a bunch of money on this and i dont want to take anything away from my school clothes money so CHEAP IS GOOD and if theres anyway i could turn some crappy old thing into something really cool by painting it or fixing it up a little then i really dont care. so please help me

18 year old girl.
I’m doing a big clear-out of my bedroom and painting it.
any ideas on wall colour? i was thinking a very light pink. and i’ve moved the furniture around a LOT over the years but if anyone has new ideas i’d love to hear them!
also any little designs i could paint onto the walls to add more rather then just plain walls… but it doesn’t bother me too much
(the TV has to be slightly around there as the tv caple is there)

thanks!
pics:
(ignore the bin bags and mess…as i said doing a huge clear-out at the moment!)
1

http://i183.photobucket.com/albums/x12/breakdancingmonkeys/bedroom/DSCF3691.jpg

2

http://i183.photobucket.com/albums/x12/breakdancingmonkeys/bedroom/DSCF3693.jpg

3

http://i183.photobucket.com/albums/x12/breakdancingmonkeys/bedroom/DSCF3690.jpg

this is an old arrangement i had…so again any furniture bar that little pencil stand thing(bed is in the same place as the last photos as well as the TV and white dresser)
1

http://i183.photobucket.com/albums/x12/breakdancingmonkeys/DSCF2075.jpg

2

http://i183.photobucket.com/albums/x12/breakdancingmonkeys/DSCF2080.jpg

3

http://i183.photobucket.com/albums/x12/breakdancingmonkeys/DSCF2076.jpg

4.

http://i183.photobucket.com/albums/x12/breakdancingmonkeys/DSCF2077.jpg

5

http://i183.photobucket.com/albums/x12/breakdancingmonkeys/DSCF2078.jpg

i have 2 rugs, their being cleaned, and there is not ONE piece of clothing not put away in those photos… it’s messy cause im cleaning it… its a work in progress.

8 year old girl.
I’m doing a big clear-out of my bedroom and painting it.
any ideas on wall colour? i was thinking a very light pink. and i’ve moved the furniture around a LOT over the years but if anyone has new ideas i’d love to hear them!
also any little designs i could paint onto the walls to add more rather then just plain walls… but it doesn’t bother me too much
(the TV has to be slightly around there as the tv caple is there)

thanks!
pics:
(ignore the bin bags and mess…as i said doing a huge clear-out at the moment!)
1

http://i183.photobucket.com/albums/x12/breakdancingmonkeys/bedroom/DSCF3691.jpg

2

http://i183.photobucket.com/albums/x12/breakdancingmonkeys/bedroom/DSCF3693.jpg

3

http://i183.photobucket.com/albums/x12/breakdancingmonkeys/bedroom/DSCF3690.jpg

this is an old arrangement i had…so again any furniture bar that little pencil stand thing(bed is in the same place as the last photos as well as the TV and white dresser)
1

http://i183.photobucket.com/albums/x12/breakdancingmonkeys/DSCF2075.jpg

2

http://i183.photobucket.com/albums/x12/breakdancingmonkeys/DSCF2080.jpg

3

http://i183.photobucket.com/albums/x12/breakdancingmonkeys/DSCF2076.jpg

4.

http://i183.photobucket.com/albums/x12/breakdancingmonkeys/DSCF2077.jpg

5

http://i183.photobucket.com/albums/x12/breakdancingmonkeys/DSCF2078.jpg

He is three and a half. about a year ago he showed interest and he would pee in the pot. Now it’s like he’s scared of it and won’t go near it without a fight. I don’t want to be pushy, but it angers me that when he has a bm he runs and hides behind the kitchen table instead of telling me.

I feel like I didn’t do enough to encourage him when he did want to do it, ( it was summer and we were outside alot), adn now that it’s winter and were inside, it seems logical that now is a good time to learn. Especially with a 4 year old neighbor that can wipe himself, and a 2 year old girl 2 houses down that’s been fully trained since 18 mos.

I’m beginning to become embarrased that he’s still in dapers.

Also we have one of those little potties that fit on top of a big potty, that’s what he doesn’t like to use.

Oh, and I think I’m going to take the advise of a resolved question and get him a stool to stand on to see if he likes standing and peeing better that trying to sit.

HELP!
Okay, I’ve bought a "special stool" for paying the cheerios game! And I’m gonna give him a pez dispenser, but he can only have a roll of candy when he uses the potty. Also I’m gonna take away his diapers this weekend. Starting tomorrow!

Wish us luck!

My whole house is painted one color (which is a lite tan almost white). I want to repaint every room. – need some suggestions on colors. I have a living room with all brown leather furniture, kitchen with attached dining room black appliances with brown cabinets and table, laundry room, master bedroom brown suit, master bath, 6 year old girl bedroom with brown bed and dresser bedspread is polka dotted with yellow pink green blue dots and bathroom , and a band/computer room. Please give any suggestions that you have.
Sorry. The carpet is really light tan very neutral in every room

i dont want to do it out of bitterness, and i think i have many valid concerns about his ability to be a father. let me know what you think is best for my child and if i have a right to feel concerned. i will only state what has been documented, and i can proove, i wont list any of the horrible things that i could not prove to a judge
1. i owe the hospital over 00 because of injuries from domistic violence, one occured during my pregnancy
2.im on ssi and drained my account numourious times, over ,000
3. stole medication i was perscribed to get high, i staying a nursing home cause i was non-weight bearing. he denied stealing it and said i gave it to him, he ended up in jail and i got kicked out.
4. could not hold a job because he was either too drunk and sent home, and 2 seperate jobs he was left alone with the cash register and took off with all the money, disappearing for long periods while i was pregnate.
3.learned that he searved 6 rs. in prison for reasons unknown
4. was accused of molesting 6 yr old girl when she was left alone with him, she was examined and the results were inconclusive,
6.was in and out of jail during my pregnancy, was in jail during birth
7. i have recieved calls from a few diffrient counties, tring to locate him for warrents, i dont know what they resulted from.
8.the 1 time he gave me support$ he took it back as soon as i left the room,baby was out of formula and diapers, he said he would go to the store and get them, instead went and robbed the store at knifepoint,never came back for baby, went and spent every last penny on crack and is searving5-15 years and is not responsible for child support.
there are many other reasons i could list on the record, they range from doignosed with phyc. disorders to coning his grandma who was on ssi out of money for his "medication" he never saw a doctor outside the nut house, and had fabricated this whole story about how much he needed medication, and it was so expensive. he had state assistance, and he would never have to pay more than for anything. plus there is no record of him seeing a dr. and he lived with me i would have seen it.
ok, i know he did nothing directly to the baby, but he is a complsive lier, and i know you probably think i was pretty dumb for staying with him. i agree, but thats beside the point, he keeps writing to me to the point where i feel harrassed, his letters are filled with lies and fabrications, and i can prove those as well, i finally wrote to the capt. of security requesting a no contact contract, i am relieved knowing i dont have to deal w/him. i dont know who he really is. i was in denial, but i feel like that he has afalse sence of reality, he lies so much even when there is proof right infront of him, its likehe honestly believes it. he is32 and could hold a job, i suspect that he all those times he went missing, with all the stolen money he was using drugs, i dont think he will never change, he probley sees me as prey, cause i didnt ever listen instinct and let him come back. but i think he is capable of more bad than good.
one other big thing is i asked him to babysit for2-3 hours so i could go
see my best friend, and he said yes, i came back a bit early &
as son as i walked in i freaked there was blood EVERYWHERE, i
checked the baby she was sleeping, then i saw my ex covered in blood his clothes were all torn and furniture was in disarray, my friend asked him what was going on he didnt know, he so incoherant. i called the police right away and i also called c.y.s i still to this day dont have a clue on what hapened, the police and i suspect that he lest to the baby alone and went to the bar, there were only to beers in the fridge when i left, and nothing else, blood on the door knob, and the tears werent small, it looked like he hit pavement hard. so since i called c.y.s they assesed him found him a potientiol danger to the baby, i had to sign a contract stating that i was responsible for the child, and i wounld never leave her alone with her dad. and if i did, i would be the one held resposible and the baby would be taken to foster care.
i could go on and on, but i think i have said enough.i want no ties with him, and yes i have anger inside, but my instinct is telling me that the i would be risking my childs emotional well being if i let him come into her life and walk out like he does everytime. he didnt learn from his 1st prision term, he is unstable, and even if he did miraculously change i would never believe it, he played that character too many times, its an endless cycle, and all i have to go by is his past, am i wrong for wanting to keep my daughter safe, and not letting him back into her life until shes old enough to decide on her own? or is it wrong to keep her from her dad?

ok so i am babysitting a little 3 yr old and a 8 yr old girl right now. the 8 yr old was trying to carry the 3 yr old off a kitchen stool(about 2 ft tall) , and she accidently let go of her! the 3 yr old landed on her bottom first, but then fell backward. the floor is wood. ive been putting an ice pack on the 3 yr olds head for about an hour, on and off. just recently, a bump started to form on the back of the head. about the size of a nickel. is there anything else that i can do to help the swelling go down?? her parents are gone and i cant get ahold of them right now. help?
the bump isnt that bad, its not something i need to call 911 about or the hospital. i just want to know if i should give her some water also. plus im 16, i know whether is serious or not. should i just give her water too? will that help? or anything else?

at a bar stool..I’ve posted adds using craigslist and the only response I’ve ever received with enthusiasm was from a 9 year old and a 13 year old girl respectively. Why are women so untouchable?

at a bar stool..I’ve posted adds using craigslist and the only response I’ve ever received with enthusiasm was from a 9 year old and a 13 year old girl respectively. Why are women so untouchable in this town?
Jenpix, send me an e-mail and give me your phone number!
Jenpix, send me an e-mail and give me your phone number!